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Monday, October 20, 2008
The Walls Crack

There once was a man who didn't cry. Oh, he would shed a few tears. Fairly often, if you ask him. But tears are only the smallest part of truely crying.

Then, one night, a girl surrendered to him. Not because she wanted it. Simply because the man was in need, and she loved him.

He sobbed. Full body tensing, releasing, tears and aching and at one point he cursed her. He fought and tried to stop it. The girl held on.

Let it go, my darling. Let it all out. It's ok. I'm here.

I love you.

Did I Mention...

...How lucky I am?

Lucky enough to have a second chance with K. The man I love. As he says, second chances are rare, third chances don't exist. (He's wrong, of course, about thirds, but I think I'll refrain from pointing that out at this point.)

Lucky enough to have my (ex)husband as one of my best friends. As a lover. Someone who has kept me sane through all of this, and someone who seems to benefit from having me in his life as much as I benefit from him.

Lucky enough to be witness to some very closed off people when they open up. Beautiful people with gorgeous hearts, allowing me a glimpse.

I don't know how I got so lucky. I don't know what I'm doing right. But I hope that it keeps going. My son, my work, my family, my friends, my men. I love you all so very, very much.

Thank you for making me so lucky.

Friday, October 17, 2008
I WIN!!!

To be fair, it's more like winning a lottery than any contest where what I've done actually matters. And it's a small victory, in the grand scheme.

But still...

I WIN!!!


I've been invited up to K's house on Tuesday. We'll see what happens from there.

Thursday, October 16, 2008


I'm nervous about just talking -- no, less than that, just IMing with the man that I've been having steamy sex with for months. And it's not even that I'm planning on having some deep, soul-baring conversation. I'm just looking forward to talking to him and scared that it will be akward.

He makes me crazy.

Wednesday, October 15, 2008
One Tough Bitch

"The law of gravity would crumble under your scrutiny, if your heart were involved."
Said years ago by a man who knew. Thanks again, M, though you meant it as an arguement at the time. I'm sure I've quoted it before. I probably will again. It means a lot to me.

When it comes to my heart, I can be... Oh, shall we say, a bit on the ferocious side. I'm scared as hell, but that doesn't stop me from going after what I want.

I told you that I want you. I told you that you couldn't get rid of me easily.

In case you were wondering... That's true. And I'm happy enough to prove it.

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